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Name: Ev
Country: Canada
Birthday: 5/6/1986
Gender: Male


Interests: Biking , Talking to Nice Ladies , Reading , Computer Games, and Sushi ---> but so broke at the moment
Expertise: Critical thinking Mechanical Designing Councilor
Occupation: Student
Industry: Engineering


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Member Since: 10/23/2003

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Wednesday, July 07, 2004

Friendship . . . a word, concept, and idea which, in my opinion, still have no meaning towards the minds and soul of many.

Why do i say this? I say this after having witnessed an unfortunate event of where a good friend of my own was inconsiderately mistreated.

It seemed to me that he was more of a pet towards this band of so called friends, rather than a friend.

Though I was weak and weiry after a long day's work, i still hold true a good sense of what you could and could not do towards friends.

Such things include not yelling at one to play tunes upon the piano and afterwards not giving tribute or respect of listening towards such great tunes.

It also seems to me that there is no more respect left within the same minds and souls of my friend's so called friends. Where was the respect when he was playing? It was no where to be found, because of the fact that they cared too much about their own lives and craved to be the center of attention.

Where was the respect towards his family members? Quietly they sat by, holding in the impulses to be ridden of or even get rid of loud and bothersome individuals.

Where was the respect? Where was it when they decided to strip him of all his dignity by taking him down and petting him like a puppy in front of old friends in which he has had and yet not spoken to in a while? Where?

The time of ranting has ended, now is the time to teach.

I question these individuals, how would you feel if you were to be stripped of all your dignity, if by chance you know what the word dignity means, in front of all your close friends. I question how these individuals will feel if they were to be asked to preform a task at which they are very proud of themselves of doing, and in return no one pays any tribute or respect to. Knowing that these certain individuals have no respect, I am assuming that I don't really need to ask them how they would feel if their family members were annoyed to an extreme by a band of inconsiderate little children who just care too much of themselves than to open up and try to repect others.

For those who read this, you may have a sense of who i speak of. For those individuals who happen to come across to what i have written, i am openly challenging your ethics, morals, and also your idea of friendship. You know who you are, and the reason why i did not speak out last night was because of 2 reasons. The first, being the fact that I did not want to ruin my friend's party, and the second is because I respect the thoughts of the one i cared for most.

Let it be known, that I will defend the ones i care with, with all the strength and power.

I know in my mind that you cannot force people to understand a problem themselves. They must realize it through an epiphany, only then will they know of what they did wrong.

 

This is Mr. Evan Chu

finishing off a post which i hope many will read

my last thoughts are of only the fact that i hope these individuals will learn well and realize what impact they have put towards others.

 

Ev


Tuesday, May 18, 2004

Challenge, i accept

With my sword of confidence, and shield of logic,

i am prepared

 

 

Ev


Sunday, May 16, 2004

I am reborn, with a burning sense to conquer again.

Although i am down to my last man, i will continue to fight, and fight i will

I was wrong to think that i was lost, never again will i look down upon myself again, i am reborn and recharged

 

 

 

Ev


Mizu No Akaski                                                    Token of Water

Mizu no naka ni yoru ga yureteru
Kanashii hodo shizuka ni tatazumu
Midorinasu kishibe
The night is wavering in the water
The greening shore is so still and silent 
That it is painful
Utsukushii yoake wo 
Tada matte iraretara
Kirei na kokoro de
If only I could wait
For a beautiful dawn
With a pure heart...
Kurai umi to sora no mukou ni
Arasoi no nai basho ga aruno to
Osiete kureta no wa dare
Dare mo ga tadori tsukenai
Soretomo dareka no kokoro no naka ni
Who told me that
There is a land without any conflicts
Beyond the dark seas and skies?
No one can reach that land,
Or perhaps it only exists in someone's heart
Mizu no nagare wo shizumete 
Kureru daichi wo uruosu shirabe
Ima wa doko nimo nakutemo
Kitto jibun de te ni ireruno
Itsumo, itsuka, kitto
A melody that can quench the thirst
Of the land that calms the waters' flow 
Even if it does not exist anywhere right now, 
I will come to possess it
Always, someday, for sure
Mizu no akashi wo kono te ni
Subete no honoo wo nomikonde nao
Hiroku yasashiku nagareru
Sono shizukesa ni tadoritsuku no
Itsumo, itsuka, kitto
Anata no te wo tori...
Let the token of water be in my hands
Even after engulfing all the flames,
It still continues to flow, gently and broadly
I will reach its tranquility
Always, someday, for sure
With your hand in mine...

currently gaining back my sanity

 

 

Ev


In pain,

cannot eat, cannot sleep, nor could i ponder any longer

how did this come upon me, i do not know

when it will cease, i do not know

 

 

 

Ev



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